I'm totally envious about the modern art history class. I've been yearning for something like that for a very long time now. A couple nights ago, I was admiring some paintings on large canvases that were clearly Rothko inspired to me. It suddenly occurred to me that I want to see a genuine Rothko and that I need to see, no, experience one of his color fields in particular. If I could own one of his color fields and hang it in a relatively small room so that I am practically within the painting every time I interact with it, an empty bit of my life will be complete. I saw one of his paintings many years ago (I think it may have been at the MOMA in San Francisco...), but I could not appreciate it then. I think I get it now. A few weeks ago, I watched a retrospective of Picasso's prolific career on OvationTV. It was a lightbulb moment! I now want huge coffee table books with giant color plates of a sampling of Picasso's work from every phase. But Rothko! I think Rothko holds a special place in my soul because his work is so difficult to understand, even more so than Pollock's. There are many modern artist's whose work remains inaccessable to me without a deeper understanding of the minds and lives behind the art. I want to take a class so that I might begin to absorb other artists as I have Rothko.

I have given some consideration to becoming a Big Sister, but I fear that I may be too broken to qualify. GOD KNOWS I suffered sufficient personal experiences to allow me to totally relate to many of the girls I may be paired with. I felt like I suffered alone back then, but looking back, I now realize that I did have "guardian angels" that I failed to recognize, because pain creates tunnel vision. I had an official Big Sister for a couple years and my brother had a Big Brother for longer. I don't want to imagine how broken (shattered) we would be if they weren't in our lives. I more than admire the work that you're doing. You may not be saving a life in the dramatic and heroic sense, but you are healing a life all the same.

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Aw, you're so sweet Perhaps there are other volunteer opportunities for you, such as helping kids with literacy. My commitment is one hour a week in school, so it fits perfectly with my schedule. Really, all you have to do is "be there", be able to listen, maybe make suggestions, be non-judgemental, and just be your sympathetic self There was a woman in my training class who seemed to have a horrible life, but she became a successful mentor too! I'm sure there is someone out there who needs your kind and artistic spirit.

I'll get the name of the textbook we're using. It's more art book than actual textbook. I'll also be posting updates in my art LJ, so you may find that interesting as well! It's purpleponyart on LiveJournal.

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